Jun. 17th, 2009 01:26 pm
kjpepper: (masstransiscope)
Dad is downstairs on the phone having a loud conversation with someone. Not a girlfriend, he talks to them every day, and this person he hasn't spoken to since the last couple rounds of hospital cha cha. I know because he took great glee in describing the gory details of mild heart attack #3. I shake my head. Well, it's good to hear him laugh.

A few days ago Dad and I got into a fierce row about, of all things, HDTV. Mr. Grand High Poohbah of 50 Inch Flatscreen insisted he had it, I told him he didn't. It took calling Direct TV yesterday and having them actually upgrade his cable package to include the HD channels to shut him up; his main topic of conversation right now is telling anyone who can listen about what a racket cable companies have going with HDTV packages. (It turned out that while dad had his dish and receiver upgraded, no one told him he had to buy the package as well.) I again shake my head. It's actually kinda nice having CNN in HD again though - it's somehow more fun with more screen.

I am fiercely disliking the trap of depression induced apathy I keep falling into. It's bad for everything. Productivity, work, waistline, you name it. My better days happen when I can summon up the nerve to plow relentlessly through a to-do list, my worst ones are when I look at said to-do list, say "fuck it" and spend the day eating my weight in tennis rolls. Part of what's feeding it is still being behind at work, I just need to buy a case of NOS and plow through it. But as always with me, starting is always the hard part. I'd blame my environment - there's definitely a sense of feeling trapped here going on - but I know that this is completely a all-in-Andee's-head thing... it's pretty likely the feeling will follow me wherever I happen to be. So I have to remember that overcoming that should be a now thing, not a "when I move" thing. Part of what tends to make me feel better is successful execution of projects, I just sort of need to organize everything I need to do as such, both practically and in my head. I'm always happy when I actually complete something... I just need to create a cycle of doing that, rather than the current failspiral I'm on.

Anyway, today I'm at least attempting to make into one of those plow through to-do list days... off to do that some more.

Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today!
kjpepper: (Joel McHale)
  • New sneakers showed up today! Just to give you an idea of how it was past time for new ones: Old 'n' Busted vs New Hotness ) Yeah, I kinda wear these damn things into the ground. Course to be fair, I got the last pair about four years ago.

  • Was editing my own writing earlier this morning for a Super!Seekrit! project I'm working on... D: D: D: Hi... my name is Andee... and... I... I abuse ellipses.... No seriously, it's embarrassing. I need to embrace, love, grok, cherish and accept the comma as my new Lord and Savior.

  • You know what else is embarrassing? How frigging out of shape I am. I dragged my old step bench out of the sunporch a few weeks ago and ordered replacements of the tapes that went with them off of Half.com (you can probably guess which ones, but I'm not going to say 'cause I know y'all are gonna make fun of my ass)... once upon a time, I could do this barely breaking a sweat, advanced level, all three risers. Now getting through it on the beginner levels on just the bare bench is a struggle, and leaves me hurting for two days. Oh HAYLL no. Recent surgery and fifteen years of aging be damned, this is NOT acceptable.

  • disgusting weather continues to be disgusting. Plan on ignoring it as much as possible, streaming a movie or two off of Neflix and trying to get more done. Can't sleep, to-do list will eat me. Can't sleep, to-do list will eat me...

  • IT'S FRIDAY. Y'all know what that means: EW in the mail and The Soup later on tonight. Funny, the little things that keep us sane from week to week, no?

ETA: also, via [livejournal.com profile] karnythia: FACEPALM WORTHY DUMBASSERY. Snarktastic and wonderful response!
kjpepper: (Sugalumps)
I seem to have more or less kicked the sleep problem that had me waking up at 10 instead of my usual 6-7. Keeping the window curtains pulled back helps, but the true trick is drinking about a liter of water before bed - that'll get you up real fast in the morning. Staying up, well that's a different beast entirely.

Plan today is to stick close to home, work, read, and hide from the heat. I may venture out later on today... need to wander down Flatbush a bit later and pick up anti-treesex pills finally. Yesterday was kind of the nail in the coffin - I can't put it off anymore.

Need to revive my toodledoo. I find it incredibly funny/exasperating that not only is reorganizing my to-do list on my to-do list, but I'm procrastinating horribly from doing so.

Pills coffee breakfast now.

Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today!
kjpepper: (Dreamy)
This from a friend going through her own brand of Rough Shit®:

i want to thank you for showing me strength, courage and the ability to take the most horrible situation and add a touch of humor to it. You an amazing woman andee and I doubt you are told that enough.

yeah... I rather desperately needed to hear that tonight. Thank you.

In other news, went to sleep at 11, got back up at 2, been up ever since. Can't sleep, to-do list will eat me. Or at least the dishes will if I don't get to them this morning... :P
kjpepper: (yarr!)
Home today, due to crapshaithe ** falling from sky. We've progressed to the freezing rain part of this afternoon's programming and the shift displeases me quite a bit. Ah well.

In other news I've been motoring through the to-do list I made for myself this morning, just trying to get chores done and myself taken care of on top of work and the omphaloskepsis I've been wallowing in indulging myself with.

cut for workout nattering and music blather )

Right, so much time, so little to do. Wait. Scratch that, reverse it... **

** Again, cookies if you know the references.


Sep. 1st, 2008 12:50 pm
kjpepper: (nyeh! demongo)
The internets are fail at entertaining me today. I'm actually running around getting chores done because of this, though considering my general blegh state of being, every single item I do I kinda have to sternly pep talk myself into it. Pretty much I've been repeating this cycle since 8:30 this morning.

*sit down at computer*

*refresh everything*

*check buddy list on pidgin*

*poke my head into SL*

*start up iTunes*

*close everything in bored disgust* (yes, I'm in one of those moods where even music is getting on my nerves)

voice in head: maybe you should do something productive. Like x.

me: do I hafta?

voice in head: well, no, but you'll hate yourself a little less when you go to bed tonight. Plus you like clearing shit off your to-do list.

me: blerrrrrggghh, wanna go to sleep.

voice in head: lazy bitch. x takes 5/10/15 minutes.

me: arrrrgh okay fine. *goes and does x*

...rinse, lather, repeat.

Least I'm slowly getting stuff done. Still, I can feel myself running out of steam. Guess I'm not totally over what's been ailing me past couple of weeks. Which is frustrating cause I've got stuff to do, you know?

Ah well. Off to do more x's. Or maybe have a nap.
kjpepper: (halloween)
Not much notable about yesterday. Another day spent in two hour bursts of activity follwed by three hour naps. Hoping my energy level stays constant today and that if I drink a shitton of water my digestive tract might start thinking about forgiving whatever greivous sin I committed against it last month.

Today is Labor Day. As far as I'm concerned, I'm still ruled by the rhythms of a school year, and summer, that horrid, misery making season, is finally over. Fall is usually my peak time, I'm looking forward to embracing the waning cursed day-star and somewhat cooler days. Hopefully September will be less stressful than August, but considering my finances are kinda in the crapper and work shows no signs of slowing down... well we'll see. Hopefully I can use one to fix the other.

I was introduced to the utter nerdliciousness of The Food Detectives yesterday. I think I may have a new favorite show. It's like Mythbusters meets Bill Nye the Science Guy, except with food. There was this whole segment about foods to never put in the microwave that was pretty damned awesome - apparently if you slice grapes in half and then split them carefully down the middle again (leaving the skin still connected) and then put them in the microwave, they catch fire.

me: ...do we have grapes?

[livejournal.com profile] sundart and [livejournal.com profile] sydneycat: ...no.

me: Can we go buy some?

S & S: NO.

Yeah, I never stated anywhere that deep down I'm not a ten year old boy.

Much as I wish I could spend the day sleeping again, I do need to get some productive things done today. Starting with the rest of last nights dishes. *sigh* Wish me luck and a kinder, gentler colon. >(
kjpepper: (green bodice)
I think I've come up with the perfect summer sandwich. I say summer sandwich, cause you know, sometimes you don't want something gunky like peanut butter when it's too hot to exist outside.

Anyway. On bread or wrap of choice, put in tomato, raw spinach, bacon bits (either real or fake, they're just as tasty) and a pinch of salt. Believe it or not, it actually kinda sticks to your ribs.

So. All I got accomplished today was something not even on my list, ie I went to Staples. Oh, and we did go grossfairy shopping, but no tux shopping. well, that's what the rest of the week is for I guess.

Game tonight was intriguing. We get to play with ghosts.

Considering part of the reason I was non productive was cause I conked out for a good two hours before game, I'm wide awake now. :) off to do... something. Provided I don't need to stir more than three feet from a box fan.

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