Creation

[kjpepper]

[someone is singing "I Will Always Love You" in the background]
Tommy: What do you think? You think love lasts forever?
Hedwig: No, but this song does... Seriously, Tom, yeah. I believe love is immortal.
Tommy: How is it immortal?
Hedwig: I don't know, perhaps because... love creates something that was not there before.
Tommy: What? Like procreation?
Hedwig: Yeah, but not only.
Tommy: What? Like recreation?
Hedwig: [laughs] Oh stop, you come in here crying and you wanna "recreate" with me.
[she thinks about it for a second]
Hedwig: Maybe just... creation.

Yeah, the quote just kinda popped into my head; it doesn't have really any bearing on what I'm thinking right this moment - which is that I need to stop bottling up all the creative energy bubbling around in my head. I'm definitely feeling this fierce, growly need to get some shit on paper, be it stories or pictures... and yet, there's still this big frustrating wall between me and getting it done, a wall consisting of distraction and things I also need to do but will now probably only get done as a procrastination device. To which I'd normally say "whatever gets it done" cause some of this shit does need to be done, but probably not at the expense of my creative crap. Man, I need to manage my time better. That or start an IV drip of NOS or something.

I find myself amusingly intimidated by the Hatemonger. At least today I've managed to get it mostly out of the box, but I really need to sit down and learn to use it. The thing is it's such a damn complex machine and now that I have it, I'm kinda humbled by it and realizing that I need to amp my skills up to the max to be worthy of owning this thing. This is a camera to make serious art with, not for just fucking around, and I need to know how best to make it work for me to create the images I want to make. I've got so many ideas for it too. I want to do some stuff with sundart and sydneycat again, possibly lostcircuit (cause when one lives with or practically lives with three cute girls it seems almost criminal to not find ways to use them). I've got this idea for a self portrait that's been haunting me since Christmas. I've got some fun ideas I wanna try with bluewindkitsune.... crap, I need a tripod and a camera bag, lol. But yeah... I have all these ideas, and just need to find the time, focus and... dedication, I guess, to get these images out of my head and into some form of reality.

Don't even get me started on the writing. I'm kinda amazed how this story I was trying to tell started with these twins and a fantastical version of New York exploded into this whole big complex tale involving a whole other world (Sinisterra) and two other kids and gates and power wielding families and evil Empresses and lone assassins, but there you go. Now if I could only pick a damn point and write it... Except (whine) I've got about four books worth of concept, and most of it's images. Kinda makes wish I could draw worth a damn. Would make a pretty kick ass graphic novel.

Anyway, enough bitching about my creative energy. I've got innostrantsa on her way over (oh very SQUEE indeed!) and it would kinda help if I were dressed and socially acceptable, ie, showered.