A roundup for today
Aug. 27th, 2008 10:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kjpepperFirst day on the Zoloft/Ativan has been... weird. I know it's not supposed to work this fast, so I'm firmly convinced any changes experienced right now are due to placebo effect, but it's been an interesting day. I swear, I felt myself at a couple of points in the day having a panic attack - all the sorta physical shittiness was there... but from the neck up? Nothing. Just sort of a vague, swimmy feeling in the head. And sleepiness. Lord, I've been sleepy all damn day.
day two of no coffee. Other than a severe low blood sugar moment around 4 o'clock, and a headache a bit later that may or may not have been other med related, no adverse effects. Maybe I'll give it up for real this time. Doubt it, but here's to thinking positively.
I need to remember to actually eat breakfast on days when I know it's going to busy enough to forget to eat. Like today and yesterday. Of course, this is a problem when eating hurts. Stupid sore throat.
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morlock and sundart and the rousing party that ensued afterwards. Watched as black delegates broke down and cried at the news. Called Dad, who was besides himself with excitement. "I wish your mother had lived to see this, Andee. I didn't think I would." Really that comment right there brought it all into focus for me... this is not going to be an ordinary presidential campaign. It has never been. This is the farthest someone darker than pale has gotten in the race for president, and not only that, this man now has the hopes and support of the entire Democratic party behind him and, honestly, has a pretty damned good shot at winning. That right there, whether you like him or no, is all kinds of historic. And for me somewhat humbling. I was born ten years after the bulk of the civil rights movement happened; by the time I was old enough to be conscious of the fact that I was black and therefore different/minority/whatever it all seemed like ancient history and very removed from my own personal experience. I grew up middle class and was bundled off to an international school where racism was something to be snarked at within our safe little multicultural bubble. It was always something I really had to think about and observe, rather than experience directly. In light of that, I feel kinda bad because Obama's nomination should mean more to me than it does. The fact that the importance of this nomination only hits my head and not really my heart so much I think says something. But still, I recognize that today for the first time ever, a man that looks like me has a pretty good shot at occupying the highest political position in the country, and that, truly, is pretty damned awesome.
day two of no coffee. Other than a severe low blood sugar moment around 4 o'clock, and a headache a bit later that may or may not have been other med related, no adverse effects. Maybe I'll give it up for real this time. Doubt it, but here's to thinking positively.
I need to remember to actually eat breakfast on days when I know it's going to busy enough to forget to eat. Like today and yesterday. Of course, this is a problem when eating hurts. Stupid sore throat.
Watched the official nomination of Barack Obama this afternoon with
morlock and sundart and the rousing party that ensued afterwards. Watched as black delegates broke down and cried at the news. Called Dad, who was besides himself with excitement. "I wish your mother had lived to see this, Andee. I didn't think I would." Really that comment right there brought it all into focus for me... this is not going to be an ordinary presidential campaign. It has never been. This is the farthest someone darker than pale has gotten in the race for president, and not only that, this man now has the hopes and support of the entire Democratic party behind him and, honestly, has a pretty damned good shot at winning. That right there, whether you like him or no, is all kinds of historic. And for me somewhat humbling. I was born ten years after the bulk of the civil rights movement happened; by the time I was old enough to be conscious of the fact that I was black and therefore different/minority/whatever it all seemed like ancient history and very removed from my own personal experience. I grew up middle class and was bundled off to an international school where racism was something to be snarked at within our safe little multicultural bubble. It was always something I really had to think about and observe, rather than experience directly. In light of that, I feel kinda bad because Obama's nomination should mean more to me than it does. The fact that the importance of this nomination only hits my head and not really my heart so much I think says something. But still, I recognize that today for the first time ever, a man that looks like me has a pretty good shot at occupying the highest political position in the country, and that, truly, is pretty damned awesome.
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Date: 2008-08-28 03:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-28 03:37 am (UTC)I took Zoloft briefly, and while I cannot testify as to the proper depression relieving effects (never was convinced of those, which is why I no longer take it) I felt the 'side effects' around the 3rd day. Very mild...dry mouth and a lightly 'speedy' feeling, mostly just a physical awareness that a chemical was in my body altering my sensations just a little bit.
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Date: 2008-08-28 03:41 am (UTC)I think that it is a triumph of the civil right movement that any of us, beige or brown, can look at Obama's nomination and have it mean no more than 'Will he be a good president?'
It's what was people fought for.
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Date: 2008-08-28 03:49 am (UTC)Could he be a better candidate? Sure. But I also understand that surviving Washington in any fashion requires playing a nasty game against some of the most corrupt amoral bags of human garbage to ever put on a suit and smile, and in addition to that, you have to convince an entire country of mostly ignorant jackasses to like you enough to get/keep your job. It's not going to be the people that have two brain cells and the ability to think critically that are going to decide this election - if it were, and if Nader didn't have the personality of a catatonic muppet, the Green party would have been in office long before now. No, in order to get anywhere near the Oval office, you have to, unfortunately, pander to the stupid enough to get their vote. A few of his proposed policies don't sit well with me, but the rest of them are pretty bang on, so he's got my support, for what that's worth in a no-brainer blue state.
Besides, the way I'm sorta figuring it is that if McCain's elected, he's probably going to keel over from old age after a month or two, and considering what security at the DNC has ALREADY had to contend with, someone's going to at least TRY to get Obama to drive past a few book depositories during his term. So really, either way, it's very possible that you won't have to worry about either one of them. Which leaves it to Biden and whomever McCain picks as a running mate.
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Date: 2008-08-28 03:52 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-28 04:05 am (UTC)They're all liars in their way...that's what it takes to get the job. And even a perfect idealist with the best of intentions is going to have to play the game or none of us will ever have heard of him.
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Date: 2008-08-28 03:48 pm (UTC)Of course there's also a certain glee in seeing the son of an immigrant get the nod from a major party.
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Date: 2008-08-28 08:37 pm (UTC)