And now an entry
Mar. 9th, 2004 01:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kjpepperMeh. I hate days where I get no sleep but have to stick it out through another day anyway. Today was one of those days. Not exactly bad all things considered - I got to math class to discover that I'd jumped the gun with my homework (not due until Wed) which was fine, whatever, but I was annoyed - I could have spent the math time panicking about preparing for my CS presentation I'm currently working on. The one I have to give in about nine hours. The one I'm vastly not looking forward to. Ugh. I hate giving presentations, I'm always convinced that I sound like an idiot. And this article I have to present on is way too short to fill forty minutes of class time, and I'm not quite cozy enough with the material to bullshit. Meh. Ah well, I feel fresh enough to retackle it - had to doze off for a couple of hours around 10 to make up for the utter lack of sleep last night but I'm fairly ok now. I'll just have to eat something to keep my morale/blood sugar up.
I was planning on going flailing at Haven tomorrow, but the outlook isn't looking so good in that direction. On one hand, meh, on the other hand considering this is the second night in a row i'm up doing scheisse and Tuesday's my late day... sleep may be in order instead, especially if I'm to get through the rest of the week in the more or less animate state. Ah well, there is next week - this is what Spring Breaks are for, really.
My parents have stopped calling me... but my brother and his wife have started, which makes me wonder if something's wrong over at Chez Alfredo, if something's wrong with Mom. *sigh* More shit I'm not dealing with... hellfire. I don't care. I should just admit that to all involved and have done with it, but I can't deal with them on top of barely keeping my head above water here schoolwise. And I'm at the point where I I think one more thing blowing up right now might just tank me, and that's not acceptable. *sigh* I'm such a mess, and I hate myself for being such a chicken and not just cutting them out of my life and leaving that whole craptastic cyclical circus behind me.
Anyway, enough angst... I've got work to do.
I was planning on going flailing at Haven tomorrow, but the outlook isn't looking so good in that direction. On one hand, meh, on the other hand considering this is the second night in a row i'm up doing scheisse and Tuesday's my late day... sleep may be in order instead, especially if I'm to get through the rest of the week in the more or less animate state. Ah well, there is next week - this is what Spring Breaks are for, really.
My parents have stopped calling me... but my brother and his wife have started, which makes me wonder if something's wrong over at Chez Alfredo, if something's wrong with Mom. *sigh* More shit I'm not dealing with... hellfire. I don't care. I should just admit that to all involved and have done with it, but I can't deal with them on top of barely keeping my head above water here schoolwise. And I'm at the point where I I think one more thing blowing up right now might just tank me, and that's not acceptable. *sigh* I'm such a mess, and I hate myself for being such a chicken and not just cutting them out of my life and leaving that whole craptastic cyclical circus behind me.
Anyway, enough angst... I've got work to do.
