Fuck everything

[kjpepper]

My left kneecap hurts like fuck.

I have a splitting headache.

I only got three hours of sleep last night.

I'm hungry.

One of my back upper molars has sprouted this sharp-ass shard of horrendousness that is poking through my gum and irritating the inside of my cheek.

My eyes are red and itchy. I hate crying during allergy season.

I'm fucking done. I'm tired of this shit. I'm tired of not trying because I'm afraid I'll fail. I'm tired of trying and then no matter what, failing. I'm tired of this cycle of self-sabotage. I tired of feeling like everything I touch, love, pour effort into, support, and help with will invariably crumble to shit before my very eyes. I'm tired of feeling like the good things in my life are cosmic accidents, and they'll be taken away from me once the gods wake up and realize their mistake. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of supporting every person that seems to need it, only to get left behind. I am not a goddamn stepping stone, so why the fuck have I felt like one for most of my life? I hate the fact that my life is a constant uphill battle. I don't look a damn thing like Sisyphus, why the hell am I rolling this stone up this mountain again? I'm tired of feeling like the gods are having a big laugh at my expense. I'm tired of disappointing everyone who believes in me. I'm tired of disappointing myself. Fuck. This.

Doctor doctor won't you please prescribe me something
A day in the life of someone else
Cuz I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else...

Thank you, Pink. Drive through.