This... seems pertinent

[kjpepper]

yoinked from karnythia, who always gets more responses and postsecret worthy stuff from this sort of thing than I ever do (and yeah, I'm kinda jealous of that, lol)

1) Post anonymously, I have no way of knowing who it is, IP logging is off.

2) Tell me anything you wish, it can be directed at me or it can be completely random or just something you need or want to get off your chest. Silly or serious.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I have a small crush on Blue

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

1) yeah yeah, you and everyone else. ;)

2) Thanks, I was running out of shit to tease him mercilessly about.

[(Anonymous)]

I have a hard time treating my youngest child like the others

[(Anonymous)]

part of me wishes I was an extremely beautiful woman who never had to work for anything as it was all given to her by various men

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

"A kiss on the hand may be quite continental but diamonds are a girl's best friend..."

[(Anonymous)]

I still think about killing myself about once a week, and don't mention it. Ever. I accept it as part of my life.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

My general attitude towards suicide is pretty much if I don't do it now I can change my mind later. If I do, it's not reversable, so I'd better fucking mean it.

I never mean it.

[(Anonymous)]

I shamefully had sex with a drug dealer in a public bathroom last Friday.

It was really good.

[(Anonymous)]

I have an imaginary boyfriend/best friend named Jonathan...I've kept the same 'idea' since high school. When I'm feeling lonely or sad or bored I talk to him and imagine scenarios where he and I are doing things....often I pretend that we are black ops agents or spies.

[(Anonymous)]

haha I do the same thing

[(Anonymous)]

you are a role model to me

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

I don't see why, but thank you.

[(Anonymous)]

Your friends have issues.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

Everyone has issues.

[(Anonymous)]

Reading about your desire to self-harm makes me want to do it, too.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

leave scars that will at least be pretty when they heal.

[(Anonymous)]

Every night I go to sleep I hope that I won't wake up in the morning.
The only reason I don't kill myself is out of responsibility to other people and respect for their feelings.

[(Anonymous)]

Yes. This. Every damn night, I pray for oblivion.

[(Anonymous)]

I wear size 9 panties, and no one makes sute stuff in that size

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

Actually I've had a lot of good luck finding cute plus size panties at Target Of course, I think this depends on the Target. But yeah.

[(Anonymous)]

I wish i lived alone

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

It's not all that much fun. Especially when you're used to being with people. I far prefer living in the attic over the garage. Company close by but not necessarily in our face all the time.

[(Anonymous)]

i fear i have lost a big part of my spirituality in the past few years

[(Anonymous)]

I wish I could play pranks on people at work and not get caught

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

Might I suggest the following for your cause?

http://www.thinkgeek.com/interests/microgoodies/8c52/

[(Anonymous)]

I spent a lot of time wondering what life would be like with a different person to share it with.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

Don't. It really isn't productive, and just leaves you completely dissatisfied and resentful on some level. Trust me on this.

[(Anonymous)]

in the past 6 months i fell in love, nearly broke up someone's marriage, and cut one of my best friends out of my life

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

You've had a busy half a year too I see. :/

[(Anonymous)]

Some days I would like to be the one that people have to clean up after rather than being the one who does the cleaning up.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

sundart called this being the fire fighter as opposed to being the flames. Lots of people would like to believe they are fire fighters. Most people are some measure of both. Some people are flames and in total denial about this. Very few people move on from being flames to firefighters in my experience, but it is possible.

That said, I sometimes wish I could be more of a fire than I already am.

[(Anonymous)]

I hate being fat...but I just cannot ever seem to make myself diet and exercise properly to lose the weight.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

Don't focus on the weight then. Focus on your health, both physically and mentally. (physical health, contrary to popular belief, isn't as tied to fat as they'd have you believe) Strength train to become stronger, dance to make yourself happier, walk somewhere instead of driving. Generally once you're feeling better the weight thing tends to resolve itself - either you start shedding it, or you learn to like yourself with it. Both are possible.

[(Anonymous)]

I kinda want to have a full on nervous breakdown, complete with a few days in the asylum. I'm too chicken to try the fake suicide cry for help type thing.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

...yeah.

[(Anonymous)]

Really? Seriously? You honestly think 6 months is all it takes to work on a relationship? That's all you're going to give it?

Feeling bad is the beginning, not the end.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

Um... yeah. Thanks for weighing in there, Captain Obvious.

[(Anonymous)]

I regularly feel like I'm simultaneously a colossal success and a miserable failure. Also, cocks.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

I prefer hens.

[(Anonymous)]

Rachel Moss (http://theangryblackwoman.wordpress.com/2008/05/28/what-rachel-moss-did/)

Google bomb!

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

...ha!

[(Anonymous)]

Some days I read your posts and it makes me so glad I keep my life simple. I might be alone, but oh, so much less drama than you seem to have found.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

I often do wish for a simpler life... but on the other hand I know that if i did I'd be woefully bored. Drama at least keeps me occupied.

[peacockdress.livejournal.com]

You may feel as though your life/brain/personality is a train wreck sometimes, but I admire your ability to find joy and humor in little things each day. I admire your childlike-ness. I also admire you for having good IRL friends; I don't have enough of those.

Hmm! Not anonymous any more, eh? Well, I meant it and I'll put my name to it. (And I even spelt "humor" without a "u", just to throw you off.) lol

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

And I even spelt "humor" without a "u", just to throw you off.

That just makes the fail more hilarious and epic. :D

[(Anonymous)]

i'm scared of people, even my friends. i hate using the phone, even if i'm calling someone i love and who loves me, and yet e-mail seems both impersonal and so permanent. if i write something down it better be meaningful, and i never feel like anything i write is meaningful. this is why i hardly see my friends. this is also why i haven't been to a head doctor in over 6 months and get back on my medication. i can't build up the nerve to actually contact them. even though every time i do i'm glad i did.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Working on that myself. Ironic and hypocritical, considering my usual pleas for honestly and straight up communication, but I do prefer email, IM and LJ as communication mediums simply because there's that level of security of hiding behind an online identity rather than the sometimes potential violation of personal security that can happen with voice or in person communication.

if that made any sense.

I really hate talking on the phone too.