kjpepper | McCryptypants

So on failing... you know, what the hell ever, I don't really care usually about failing at little things, or even big things usually. But when it's something I care deeply about? oh HELL yeah, it hurts.

What doesn't help with that is knowing that other people expect x thing to fail... it just makes the defeat all the more crushingly humiliating, and not in the fun way like falling in the mud on Ninja Warrior, cause doing anything on ninja warrior is a success, damn it. No it's just the sort of, I'm already down and people are smug jackasses and can't wait to say Yeah, see I knew that was gonna go tits up. It sort of makes me want to pull the fail out somehow and say to the world FUCK YOU I WILL MAKE THIS WORK SEE IF I DON'T AND DID I MENTION FUCK YOU? And then there would follow a whole big montage probably scored with Vangelis in which you know work on x thing is done, training happens, sacrifices are made, lots of FEEL THE BURN faces are made in slow motion, violins swell and YES YES THE FAIL IS NOW SUCCESS! EAT THAT BITCHES! *orchestral florish*

Why yes, I chase rainbows and tilt at windmills, thanks for asking. And when I find the pot of gold at the end someday YOU CAN'T HAVE ANY. SO THERE.

yea okay, </irrational_moment>