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[kjpepper]

Love me and my dragons, damn it:

Get your own valentinr

Whoa. Looking out my window, with the cloud cover the way it is, the sky is a pale, perfect rainbow. The clouds are all lavender and blue, the sky's still that weird early morning cyan and the horizon, or what i can see of it, is still tinted red. Beautiful.

Next few days are gonna be nuts. I look forward to rising to several challenges that face me in the days ahead. Not sure what sort of game I'm playing but I hope I win. Work will be nuts today, I go to see Dr Tassoni and hear the verdicts on various tests I've had in the past two weeks and whether I will be looking forward to a foreseeable future of injections. *wibble* Hopefully Opera Tonight, if I can score a ride back from South Hadley after its over. Then probably up all night packing and then out to make an early bus to Hartford, where I'll meet up with the rest of the Mew Mew Neko Force and head to Providence for a day or so of Flea. Home Sunday night, where I'll probably collapse into grateful exhaustion, and then President's day off, and a date with sydneycat to see Coraline.

This week's been scary. But... ultimately necessary. I'm tired as hell, and still prone to random bouts of tears, but... my head hasn't been this quiet and clear in a very long time. I know which way the enemy's gate is, I know where I've been, and what led me there. I know where I'm going, some semblance of how to get there, and what I'll be up against on the way. It's a start.

Thanks for all your help.

And now, I leave you with a quote that I woke up in my head this morning that seems... really apt today.

There's a passage I got memorized. Ezekiel 25:17. "The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you." I been sayin' that shit for years. And if you ever heard it, it meant your ass. I never really questioned what it meant. I thought it was just a cold-blooded thing to say to a motherfucker before you popped a cap in his ass. But I saw some shit this mornin' made me think twice. Now I'm thinkin': it could mean you're the evil man. And I'm the righteous man. And Mr. 9mm here, he's the shepherd protecting my righteous ass in the valley of darkness. Or it could be you're the righteous man and I'm the shepherd and it's the world that's evil and selfish. I'd like that. But that shit ain't the truth. The truth is you're the weak. And I'm the tyranny of evil men. But I'm tryin', Ringo. I'm tryin' real hard to be the shepherd.

Emphasis mine.

And with that in mind - I go to face my day, my weekend, the rest of my month, the rest of my life.