Temet Nosce
Feb. 17th, 2004 08:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kjpepperThe work, it seems, never really ends.
I had one of those conversations with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
timarok last night that you turn over in your mind for hours thereafter. It's like playing with a rubik's cube, really, you sit and you twist, and if you have the knack for it, solve it, and if you don't either things get more convoluted or if you're like me, you get to a certain point and stall. (I will solve it someday, I will...)
I don't know - his worldview's a little skewed here and there but if you can sort of work your mind around his paradigm every so often he makes a certain amount of sense.
I feel like I started out knowing who the hell I was when I was younger, and then friggin' college broke me. Or did it? Maybe it just exascerbated problems I didn't really know were there before. Anyway the point is, since 2000, with the aid of friends who demand no less than total honesty with self and others I've been kinda doing a system evaluation - slowly figuring out what the hell's going on with my hardware, how I work, what's somehow stopped working over time, what never worked in the first place. Mostly because I wanted to be likegossamer_gull: "You can say what you want about me but you can't say that I don't know myself." I think what I figured out last night is that I think I'm done with the eval stage finally. Maybe I've been done with it for a while. I don't really know. But at any rate... definitely time at this point to defrag and upgrade and actually fix the shit that's wrong.
Gotta go. Mmmm, digestive upset cha cha, gotta love it.
I had one of those conversations with
timarok last night that you turn over in your mind for hours thereafter. It's like playing with a rubik's cube, really, you sit and you twist, and if you have the knack for it, solve it, and if you don't either things get more convoluted or if you're like me, you get to a certain point and stall. (I will solve it someday, I will...)I don't know - his worldview's a little skewed here and there but if you can sort of work your mind around his paradigm every so often he makes a certain amount of sense.
I feel like I started out knowing who the hell I was when I was younger, and then friggin' college broke me. Or did it? Maybe it just exascerbated problems I didn't really know were there before. Anyway the point is, since 2000, with the aid of friends who demand no less than total honesty with self and others I've been kinda doing a system evaluation - slowly figuring out what the hell's going on with my hardware, how I work, what's somehow stopped working over time, what never worked in the first place. Mostly because I wanted to be like
gossamer_gull: "You can say what you want about me but you can't say that I don't know myself." I think what I figured out last night is that I think I'm done with the eval stage finally. Maybe I've been done with it for a while. I don't really know. But at any rate... definitely time at this point to defrag and upgrade and actually fix the shit that's wrong.Gotta go. Mmmm, digestive upset cha cha, gotta love it.
