*headdesk* *headdesk* *headdesk*

*insert scathingly brilliant and wittily written rant about emotionally/physically abusive relationships that I will never have the brainpower or really the care to write*

If you're actually reading this/on my flist, it's not about you. Nor, before you ask, is it at all about me, though what's triggering the above is certainly making me have some uncomfortable thoughts pertaining to my own tendencies towards codependency.

And that's all I'm gonna say about it, other than GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUGH *stabbity stab stab*

Whut.

Good gods. I'm having flashbacks of being tortured with "The Music Fact Rap" in middle school.

"Thinking of you on this Patriot Day"

Someone please please explain to me why I thought it was a good idea to google "9/11 greeting cards" and while you're at it, tell me I got no less than I deserved for my folly when actually finding them made my headache worse.

Shit

I've been tweaky all damn day. I started out stressed enough to hell that I called in to work today, and it's been getting progressively worse since. Not getting work done, though I'd like to be. I was trying to describe to C earlier what this felt like, and the best way I could come up with is this.

There is always a lot of background noise in my head. Usually it's at a dull roar or a simmer, and I can usually isolate bits of the noise, deal with it, and then put it down, and then go on to the next thing. But when I get like this it's like someone's added a TV cranked to 30 blaring a news channel in a foreign language that I only sort of know (lets say Russian, as right now my fluency is just about nonexistant there) and the coverage is all bloody war battles and bombings and devastation all the time, but all the images are of places I know rather than being somewhere comfortably across an ocean or so. Yeah... gets kinda hard to think straight or uncoil from being wound up tight when that's happening.

So yeah. Not having a good day. And I have a headache to boot. I might take a nap in a bit, hopefully that will reset my head enough to function again.

Tweets for Today

Andee...

• 06:19 is up too damn early
• 08:42 is staying home from work today. :(
• 11:52 is completely appalled by the existence of 9/11 greeting cards. Gods, why?
• 15:16 is not really okay. :(
• 18:22 is somewhat better after helping C make dinner. It's gonna take clorox to get the garlic and ginger smell off my hands though.

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