Might as well make that whole year's end post now. Or at least as much of it as I can manage before
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sydneycat and I have to leave for the Joel McHale show. Yes that's right. Joel McHale. Our personal lord and savior from the Soup. So Meaty.
Really, I'm not sure what precise concise (hey that rhymed) thing I can say to sum up 2008, so lets post a picture:
No seriously. The only thing that could have made 2008 any goddamn worse would be someone close to me dying (knock on wood, there are still 30 hours left), nuclear winter, everyone's dead except for the Australians, who are still all WTF? Pretty much a lot more death would have had to happen. As it was, there were breakups, critical spoon failures, critical health failures, serious depression, and financial ugh to contend with galore. And it just kept relentlessly getting progressively worse up until that whole landing in the hospital part II thing. Then the bad plateaued off for a little while, and maybe three weeks ago things started looking up a little bit again. I guess, since major change was happening, it did involve death in some way, the death of old dreams and selves. But anyway. May I live a thousand years and never have a year like 2008 ever again. Seriously. What in Satan's red and spicy hell was that shit?
As for 2009. I meet it with a lot of trepidation, as at least the first half of it is going to involve change, upheaval, challenges and all sorts of scariness. Several things are currently in the works, hopefully leading someplace positive. A few things will remain constant, which is nice, though they are not enough to form the kind of safety net I'm used to working with. I have a feeling I will be flying blind for a lot of the next few months, and this both kinda excites me and makes me want to take to my bed and hide under my blankets until it's all over. But yeah... all sorts of stuff in the air right now, I barely know which way is up. At least I have some inkling of where the enemy's gate is, so that at least gives me
down. The rest of the directions I might have to work out for myself.
Anyway. My starting point is actually a little further than planned, thanks to two Christmas presents. I has the Preciousssss now (yep, five s's), that is, a lovely new iPod Touch. Which is good; I needed a PDA type apparatus, cause I know I can't keep myself straight using just my brain. Also, thanks to an extremely generous present from my sister, I'll start 2009 with my total hospital bill for 2008 + 90% of my credit card paid off. Huzzah. So that frees me up in the financials to worry about future car maintenance, moving costs, and paying off both my student loans and the Carole and Raf loan from way back when.
I don't exactly have resolutions (I don't believe in them) but I do have some things I'd like to accomplish. I want to start working out/being more active again, since as of this week I actually can, and I miss being in shape. I want to be on more solid footing financially (I know I know, economy blah blah, but hey you gotta start somewhere) and start socking away "andee wants a house" money. I want to start writing and beadweaving again. I want to finish some projects I've been carrying around in my head for a while. I want my tattoo, damn it, every goddamn body else seems to be getting one. I want to stop feeling like the walking wounded/living dead/damaged goods I've been feeling like all year and get back to being that fabulous woman I used to see in the mirror (only maybe a little bit smaller and stronger). But mostly? I think my main goal is that in 366 days I'll be able to flop backward either into a comfy chair or into someone's arms, and instead of saying "well, that sucked" be able to say "yeah... that/I kicked ass."
2009. I intend to make it a good one. Here's hoping you do too.
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