kjpepper | My life as a bear market...

I don't know where this is coming from but lately it seems like anything I invest time and effort into yields nothing in return.

There are exceptions to this of course. I guess this is more indicative of my state of mind than any true statement on what's going on in my life. I just wish I wasn't constantly haunted by the feeling that I waste time, waste money, waste space, waste oxygen. And of course, at the end of that fun little progression is the feeling that quite technically my very existence is someone's inconvenient fuck up. Which doesn't make sense and really is just my own self-pity/indulgence/hatred talking... but why do the meaner of my little voices see fit to bring this up every single time? I mean, if someone tells you this shit enough times, of course you're going to start believing it.

mrrrph.