questions that have no answers
Apr. 14th, 2004 10:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kjpepperhow do you tell a class dean that yes you have seriously fucked up your classwork because you were too fucking scared to actually go tell people you were having serious trouble and needed help? How do you then convince her that you still want to finish this with some measure of decent grades and a chance to actually march to the goddamn bagpipes instead of wanting to smash something every time you hear Scotland the Brave?
how do you tell a seriously ill woman that you still love her after you have studiously avoided her calls, email, and letters for three months, scared that she'd think less of you for not being able to get your shit together on time? How do you make that sound convincing when all evidence points to the contrary?
How do you tell a new friend that you've been dishonest about the one thing that it was crucial that you be honest about? How do you explain that both the truth and the lie were equally hurtful? How do you admit you made a mistake and not have them hate you for it?
How do you reach out to an old friend/sister who no longer trusts you when she's going through her own very tangible personal pain?
How can you keep from shutting out the one person who would willingly go to hell for you and back because she's become yet another person you feel you shouldn't disappoint?
How do you convince yourself that it is possible to rise from the ashes of a broken heart? And how do you accomplish such a thing?
Do keyboards short circuit if you cry on them?
Why does it always take everything completely falling apart at once to spur me into fixing the shit that's wrong with me?
I need coffee.
how do you tell a seriously ill woman that you still love her after you have studiously avoided her calls, email, and letters for three months, scared that she'd think less of you for not being able to get your shit together on time? How do you make that sound convincing when all evidence points to the contrary?
How do you tell a new friend that you've been dishonest about the one thing that it was crucial that you be honest about? How do you explain that both the truth and the lie were equally hurtful? How do you admit you made a mistake and not have them hate you for it?
How do you reach out to an old friend/sister who no longer trusts you when she's going through her own very tangible personal pain?
How can you keep from shutting out the one person who would willingly go to hell for you and back because she's become yet another person you feel you shouldn't disappoint?
How do you convince yourself that it is possible to rise from the ashes of a broken heart? And how do you accomplish such a thing?
Do keyboards short circuit if you cry on them?
Why does it always take everything completely falling apart at once to spur me into fixing the shit that's wrong with me?
I need coffee.
