State of the Andee

[kjpepper]

Work: Still Crazy. Think I'm going to try to play a little catch up over the weekend.

Self: Still nowhere near 100%. I've been achy and tired and damn if my digestion still is on strike. I think this weekend I'm going to try to nurse it back with lots of water, pink drink and soft easily digested food. Really this weekend I'm just dedicating to resting, with a lttle work throawn in - I didn't really rest at all on my vacation, and I rather desperately need it. Huzzah three day weekend.

Oh and I dropped three more pounds. Fuck. I hate it when my weight just goes into free fall like this. Really I just hate it when it spontaneously goes in either direction, and the only effect that my efforts at actively controlling it seems to be holding it steady at a fixed point. I might have to start doing that again.

Head: I'm really trying hard to just relax and let the meds do their job, but it's really really hard. Everyone says going on zoloft for the first time will mess you up quite a bit initially and just go with the flow, but it's tough cause I keep reacting to situations like "stimulous x has been recieved. Present reaction y. Reaction Y has experienced a critical error and needs to close. Send error report?" It's really unsettling. On the onther hand I'm not panicking anymore, so I suppose that's good? Mostly I'm cycling between tired, cranky and apathetic, with the random 30 minutes of mania thrown in just to keep me guessing. *sigh* I'm trying to go with the flow here and just let my brain adjust, but this is going to be a process, I can just tell.

One good thing? I fall asleep in a snap and sleep like a rock. That's been really nice. I intend to do it more.

morlock and sundart have been really good to me in the meantime, with the head pettins, the sympathetic listening to my bitching and wibbling and the hugs when I need em. The attention right now is deeply appreciated.

So yeah, the general plan is to survive today's workday as best I can, then come home and drop into a bed for a few hours. We'll see how that works.

Comments

[firinel.livejournal.com]

Are you bi-polar? If so you really shouldn't be on zoloft, at least not on it's own, but I may have missed it if you were on other stuff, too.

Zoloft made me lose weight too. A lot. I went from a size 18-20 to a 14 in about a month and a half. I had trouble sleeping on it, though. Whenever I did sleep, which wasn't often, it was for only three hours at a time. Basically it produced mania, which wasn't good, even if at that time it was the frantic-but-productive sort. The next time I tried it, it was the irritable I-eat-your-head sort.

[kjpepper.livejournal.com]

nah, this is fisher price my first head med. pretty much I'm on it to stop the panic attacks I was having all day. I don't think I'm bipolar.