Damn it, damn it, damn it

I hate it when people are mad at me. Even for spurious reasons. *sigh*

I have to wonder if I'm doomed to erode my entire support network with my own fuckupery.

Ah well. Back to slaving away at this damn homework.

Battery warning

Shit, Livejournal's dead this morning...

You know how they always say that things get worse before they get better? Can't we just skip the worse part now? Pretty please? *sigh*

I feel like I'm going to implode for a change. I need a nice change of pace from exploding, I think.

On an up-note, a much welcomed break from the home/school/parents/timarok Celebrity Batshit Circus was had when a gossamer_gull, intent on a day of dietary indulgence to rival the Romans on a weekday after being very good all month, arrived to whisk me away for an hour or so of bright yellow grease coated chicken quesadillas and ice cream at Friendly's. I hadn't seen her in over a month, and we'd been, well, fighting, so this trip to Friendly's was extra fabulous. And so was the apple pie sundae. Thanks, babe.

Good stuff at the hizzouse too. Last night was primitive_boy's birthday and celebrating was had when beatgoddess marched into the living room bearing snackycakes adorned with birthday candles... and we all sang, and then since my laptop was on my lap I had to follow that up with 50 Cents' "In da Club" (go shawty, it's your birthday, we gonna party like it's your birthday...). And then he and beat snuggled up on the couch and watched Secondhand Lions, which I didn't catch all of but looked excellent from what I did catch.

Making progress on the homework problem but it's not going fast enough for me, and I'm getting massively stressed about it. Have to talk to my 370 prof after classes are done for today, am massively wibbly about this and I don't know why, he's been nothing but nice about me and my fuckery. But so it goes.

Thank the goddess, the massive fucko-bazoo that was falling out in the timarok department is pretty much resolved now. So now we get to be upset with each other for completely different reasons. *facepalm* Oh, joy.

Update: 3:08pm: jeez, ya think I could have used derivatives of the word "massive" a few more times in the last two paragraphs?

Of course there are also the little voices to contend with that much of the crap I'm complaining about is entirely my own fault. Of course it's also being totally vicious as well. I was just thinking about how my digestive system's been too unsteady to eat anything all day, and my brain chimed in with a cheerful "You're a big girl, you won't waste away to nothing." Arrrrrrgh.

Spring Break's in a week and a half. I fully intend on spending much of it asleep. I'm so tired it's not even remotely humorous at this point.

random thoughts

1:
off of MSN.com this morning:

Hummers come in handy in case you need to mount a motorized assault on the Stop-n-Shop.

Did I mention I hate these things with all of my soul? They're slow, they don't handle well, guzzle gas for no useful purpose (F-series trucks you can at least attach snowplows to) and exist simply for people to get their rocks off by rolling down the street in a blindingly ugly mustard yellow tank.

Though motorized assaults on the local Stop and Poop would be funny. Especially if it's 3 AM and all you're after is your midnight fix of Cocoa Puffs.

2:
As I wait nervously to go see my professor, this randomly pops into my head:( Tainted Love )

Warm rain

For the second day in a row, I went home from campus along the Mill River. I took my time, carefully picking my way through the melting slush and the mud, test driving a sweet sad mix on my nomad, and enjoying the walk home.

It started to rain on my way, a light drizzle that three weeks ago would have been cold and depressing but today, with a surprisingly warm breeze underneath it caressing my face, it was oddly comforting. I leaned against a tree, watching it break the surface of the water and enjoyed one of the first true moments of peace I've had in recent memory.

Toys

So I've been thinking - I hate cell phones. I always have. But lately I've been thinking that once I'm out of school and employed again or something I may look into getting a two way pager. Those things are cool. Or maybe I was just sold on that anime ad they had for them six months ago. :) Any recommendations as to devices or plans? I've sort of got my eye on the Motorola T900, but considering my aforementioned aversion, I don't know Jacques Chitte about how to get service...

I'm rather amused by the fact that I seem to have inherited my dad's passion for gadgets.

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more random thoughts

It's forty degrees (F) out there, and even though I didn't really want to be out there hauling trash (who does, really?) I was perfectly happy to be out there in T-shirt sleeves. I have to wonder whether people in Canada feel the same about 15-20 degrees. After all, according to timarok it's in the upper sixties where he is (Phoenix) and the locals there are wearing sweats and jackets.

How did the association between cops and donuts get started anyway?

I wonder if behind every overplayed god-awful irritating cover that somehow goes into heavy rotation on the radio there is a beautiful heartbreakingly sweet original? I've been on a rediscovery kick lately, and today's chanson du jour is the original Dolly Parton "I Will Always Love You." With just Dolly's baby doll voice and a few soft guitars and completely devoid of the smack-me-upside-the-head-with-an-18-wheeler quality of the Whitney Houston version, this song is now on my list of songs that make me bawl my eyes out.

gotta go, have two IM conversations on hold.